Saturday, June 30, 2007

I have a voice

"Sometimes I wonder what you boys would do if you weren't gay. You'd have no identity. It was easy when you couldn't talk about it. Now it's all you talk about. You talk about it so much that you forget about all the other things that you are."

I was watching Broken Hearts Club the other day, and when I heard those lines, it really summed up how I felt about the most gay guys, they come across all hung up on themselves. going to the gym everyday, wearing makeup to make themselves look clean, tidy and "pure looking" most really are hung up on themselves and the "gays of our lives" drama that goes on. They live life going on as "if it's not gay it's not worth knowing"

screw that, there is much more important things in life than going to the gay clubs every weekend so you can check out the latest fresh meet that has arrived on the scene hoping that you can get your hands on on their body.

Quite frankly I would rather be having a good time with my friends, having a good laugh about life and just living...

seriously guys you are missing out on the beauty of life, embrace it while you still have the chance and live

Monday, June 25, 2007

I've seen better days

I was having a chat to someone online about relationships in the gay world and how much they suck. Well what sucks about it is that I am not in one. I just really want someone that I can get all coy over.

Monday, June 18, 2007

all about me

1. Full Name: Russell James Clark
2. Nicknames: Russ, Rustify, Russy
3. Birthday: 25 October 1983
4. Place of Birth: St Helen's (Auckland)
5. Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
6. Male or female: Male
7. Grade: S for SUPERSTAR
8. School: Rutherford College
9. Occupation: Test Analyst
10. Residence: Wellington
11. MSN Screen Name: RJ

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Colour: Brown
13. Hair Length: short
14. Eye colour: Blue/hazel - depending on the day
15. Weight: Whale
16. Height: 5'11
17. Braces: No
18. Glasses? Not since i was a child
19. Piercings: one
20. Tattoos: No
21. Righty or Lefty: Righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Zack
23. First Award: C.M Richwhite Prize
24. First Sport You Joined: Te Atatu Football Club
25. First pet: Dog
26. First Real Vacation: Woolies Bay
27. First Concert: Adino
28. First Love: Jodie Sweetin

___ Favourites___

29. Movie: Psychological Thrillers
30. TV programme: Family Guy
31. Colour: green
32. Rapper: i dont know rap
33. Band: too many
34. Song Right Now: dont really have one
35. Friend: so not answering this one, I dont wanna cause fights
36. Sweet: Apple
37. Sport to Play: swimming
38. Restaurant: Monsoon Poon
39. Favourite brand: exchange
40. Clothes Shop: KMart
41. School subject: Drama
42. Animal: tiger
43. Book: The Juniper Game
44. Magazine: TV Guide
45. Shoes: meh


46. Feeling: lazy and cold
47. Single or Taken? *sighs* single
48. Have a crush: yeah...
49. Eating: nothing I don't deserve to eat
50. Drinking: Lady Grey Tea
51. Typing: This
52. Online: well obviously
53. Listening To: 3 News
54. Thinking About: what im going to have for dinner
55. Wanting To: see more of a certain someone
56. Watching: 3 News
57. Wearing: work clothes

___Your Future___

58. Want Kids? kinda
59. Want to be married? someday
60. Careers in Mind: what I'm doing now?
61. Where do you want to live: europe
62. Car: Mazda 6 or a BMW

__Which is Better With The Desired Sex___

63. Hair colour: don't care
64. Hair length: don't care
65. Eye colour: don't care
66. Measurments: don't care
67. Cute or Sexy: don't care
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: depends if they've sminted
70. Short or Tall: don't care
71. Easy going or serious: Both
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both
73. Fatty or Skinny: don't care
74. Sensitive or Loud: bit of both
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: bit of both

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: Yep!
79. Had Alcohol: Yup
80. Smoked: Yup
81. Ran Away From Home: nope
82. Broken a bone: yep
83. Got an X-ray: several
84. Been with someone: yup
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: possibly
86. Broke Up With Someone: yup
87. Cried When Someone Died: yup
88. Cried At School: yup

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: Yes
90. Miracles: Yes
91. Love At First Sight: not sure yet...
92. Ghosts: kinda
93. Aliens: Yes
94. Soul Mates: Yes
95. Heaven: Yes
96. Hell: Yes
97. Angels: Yes
98. Kissing on The First Date: yes
99. Horoscopes: not really

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? Yes

Saturday, June 16, 2007


For seven years, Sydney Bristow believed she was working for a covert branch of the CIA, named SD-6. However, when she tells her fiance of her job, Arvin Sloane, head of SD-6 and an old family friend, has him murdered. With this life-shattering event, Sydney learns not only that SD-6 is a mercenary group of terrorists, but that her father, too, works for SD-6. Sydney then works with the CIA as a double agent, trying to bring down SD-6 with her father, a second double. This is only the beginning of a path of betrayal, murder, lies, and disbelief. Sydney Bristow pushes through trials of love, learns the truth about her mother, loses a friend in an utter form of incredulity, pitfalls herself into months of torture and puzzlement, and is tormented with countless revelations to come

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Loves Release

unopened yet aged
my tormented heart burns with rage
longing to be loved
pining to be released
where is my lover
who will set me free
I want your heart, cant you see

look at my image, face on
transparent and void
look straight ahead, nothing
you see right through me
you walk on by as you don't care
I am empty, filled only with despair
I want your heart, can't you see

black and cold
I want to be warm
your pleasant memories
distant and fade
give me hope a hint of a smile, at least
can't you see, I want your heart
I want your heart, can't you see
© Russell Clark 2007

Monday, June 11, 2007


This post is a tribute to all my friends,

This is for all the good time we have spent together, and also for all the support you have given me in my low time.

so thank you.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

you suit it!

It's interesting. . .

I was sitting at Lava bar with Owen having a conversation, when an incredibly intoxicated young woman approached us swayed from side to side then blurted out "are you gay?"

I replied with "yes"...

she then replied with "you know I could tell, you wanna know why? ... you suit it"

it would have to be one of the funniest moments I have witnessed...

who knew that Gay is the new colour this season?

Im Back, and better than ever

Well its just been over 6 weeks but I am finally back and better than ever.

I do apologies for not keeping posts regular but alas I did not have enough Internet time to post.

well since being evicted I stayed with a friend in Petone, I am so grateful to all my friends for their support during this time.

In the last few days, I ended my job in the National Travel Assistance team. I then went away for the weekend to Rotorua with Owen and his family for, Lavina's unveiling.

It was a truly magical and fantastic experience, her life was so bright and fruitful, and her unveiling was just that.

Upon returning from Rotorua, I proceeded to move my belongings from my friends place to my new place in town. Now I am settled and I will be blogging more often...

Today I started my new job at MOH as a Test Analyst, I will be looking forward to it, as I learn more and more about my role.